Vacation

I didn’t write the entire month of December. I thought about it a lot. I think about kink and writing a lot, but my laptop is slow and typing on my phone isn’t satisfying, and let’s face it, when little one is home I would far rather be mindlessly playing with her shoulder than I […]

Protector

I am smaller than her. She has about 6″ on Me, she can wrap her arms around Me and hold Me a lot easier than I can her – not that she does, I am the big spoon, and I like it that way. I am just very conscious of My size. I haven’t hated […]

Tone

I have been told My entire life that I have a tone, I have a tone that makes Me sound like I am better than everyone, makes it sound like I am a bitch, and makes Me sound mean. I have been told to watch My tone, that it hurts people. I have worked very […]

Happy Anniversary

Today marks 9 years. 9 years since we met on a corner of a busy street after telling her I loved her. 9 years after an awkward walk in light rain where all I wanted to do was kiss her – I think we may have held hands. She has become My world, in so […]

I’ve been absent

…in a lot of ways. I haven’t been writing here because I have been embarrassed. I have not been the Daddy I want. I have not had the dynamic I want. W/we have talked lots. I have brought up the dynamic a few times, it always seems to be Me bringing it up. That worries […]

Online Community

Everyone has heard of FetLife. I was on FetLife very actively, and I still am – only under a different username, and I don’t go on much at all. I used to go to munches and parties and I don’t anymore. I started to realized that I missed something – I don’t think it was […]

I have to be honest

D/s is hard man. It’s fucking hard to ever feel like you have it right or its going well, and it’s probably partially Me, it’s likely mostly Me. I’m having one of those days where I just want to write and get it all out, so I’m going to do that, this is going to […]

Power and Ego

I’m sure I have written on something similar before. But it’s late here, and I am tired, so I am too lazy to go back and check. However, I am sure that this will be slightly different as I feel like a completely new Dom than I did before. I used the word Dom up […]

Turning Point

Little one and I seemed to have undergone some sort of shift, or into a deeper place of D/s. I feel like it was caused by some mental health issues W/we were both going through. When the mini-crisis was done, I feel like W/we both felt a little more in our places. After a particularly […]

she knelt for Me

Not too long ago, I was having a pretty hard time and feeling very down, and irritated that things weren’t going the way I thought they should. I was sitting on the bed, shoulder slumped glancing down, when she walked over to Me and knelt. I didn’t tell her too, she just did it. I […]